Life always has a way of shedding light when you feel that you’ve been under a dark cloud for far too long. I guess sometimes it tells us that you’ve been focusing too much on the negative side of things rather than the positive. It gives a slight nudge saying “Hey, go easy on yourself. Stop focusing on that aspect. You’re not seeing the bigger picture.”
I always took pride in my capability to look on the brighter side of life no matter how shitty the situation is. I find something to laugh about and maybe this is also why I enjoy sarcasm and dark humor. I sometimes think “Things couldn’t get any worse than this” and then they do. It’s like after you’ve been hit by a boulder, an avalanche occurs. So I just shrug, let out a sigh and say “Oh well. At least I’m still alive. I can dig myself out of this somehow.”
Last Sunday, however, I was consumed by the dark cloud that was looming over me. My strength to fight was failing me. I took the most unlikely decision-I gave up. I turned numb and got up like a zombie to go to work on Monday. Work had been slow for the last two months and I expected that day not to be any different from the others. I have ventured into the everydayness of things once again and it was depressing.
Things started to turn around all of a sudden. I was able to close a small deal and then one after the other, my bigger deals fell into place. All my work had eventually paid off. No matter how small or simple these events were, they helped me put things into perspective again. It provided me with a glimpse of one of the other aspects that were part of the bigger picture. And I think of myself “There’s so much more that I have yet to explore.” I'm beginning to be excited. Life is becoming sweet again.