Sometimes I wonder why I get into shitty situations. I always thought of myself as a levelheaded and logical person. I assess, list the possible consequences of certain actions and then make a decision. I pride myself in giving good advice to people and yet somehow, I fail to actually follow them. I guess sometimes the hardest person to see is yourself and situations are harder to handle if you are actually in them.
You make mistakes and you learn-this should be the case. And if you haven’t, then the same situations will present themselves over and over until you learn what you’re supposed to in order to grow. Somehow these situations contain the demons of the past. I sometimes want to run my head into the wall because of my stubbornness. I make the same mistakes over and over. Aware of the bad consequences of certain actions that I take, I still take them, somehow hoping that the outcome would be different. Sometimes they are, but more often than not, they aren’t. I yet have to overcome my vulnerabilities. It’s high time to stop blaming the damages of the past-acknowledge them and just learn how to deal.
It’s funny how life throws you so much. It’s like after you’ve overcome one vulnerability-it throws you two more situations and then three and then so on and so forth. I’d like to think that life’s intent is to throw these situations to you to make you better. No matter how bad they may be, you’ve got to face it. It’s like a challenge for you to reach your highest potential as the best human being that you can ever be in your lifetime.