From time to time, I maka drastic decisions. I like to surprise people and more so, I like to surprise myself. Though some of them have gotten me into trouble. But then they're there to spice things up and make life more interesting. I mean wouldn't it be boring if you always made the well thought out and the right decisions all the time? Unpredictability sometimes bring unexpected pleasure and good results. This is not to say that every impulsive choice is justifiable. I think I've made so many mistakes and have already grown to know when to make such decisions or when to step back and think it over first.

My decision to leave, on the other hand, was a drastic and yet well thought out. Perhaps it's not so much a drastic but a riskier one. I was presented with a choice on whether to stay on the safer side of things and live a life that is more or less predictable or to take the road less travelled-to a place unfamiliar, but presents opportunities that can possibly offer me the life I so desired. During the time I was contemplating on which choice to choose, it was like I was at a crossroads where in one path clearly showed what was at the end of it and the other was blurred. I was scared and yet excited to explore the unknown. But at one point, my fear was getting the better of me and an unfortunate event took place for me to realize what I had to do. It also inadvertently revealed to me what I think my purpose is in life.

And so here I am in a place unknown to me. I am immersing myself in a new lifestyle and a different environment. I am not scared, but what I fear is not being able to fulfill my realized destiny. So many things can be distracting and I'm trying to be mindful of what I have to do to fulfill my dream and my promise to Berta. It's like now, my dream and that promise had been intertwined. And that promise to Berta had been intended for her to see, but death is not an excuse for me to disregard it. I know that deep in my heart that she will witness it elsewhere. I guess also that it is a way of imparting my gratitude to her for the things she had shared and shown me. I only pray that I fulfill it.